Saturday, December 31, 2005

It Has Come to My Attention...

It has come to my attention that some of my siblings might on occasion read this thing and so to them I would like to issue an apology for any hurt feelings or bruised egos.
I do not write this blog to be spiteful or hurtful - I do it to get out those thoughts buzzing in my brain that I need to see as words to be rid of them.
Please do not take to much to heart what I say and if you do, know that I do love each and every one of you, despite whatever fights and issues we may have. Families fight and we do more than most, with my causing just as many as anyone else.

To anyone else who might read this, I would like to make sure I that openly acknowledge that I am no saint and in no way perfect, especially where my family is involved.

This blog, like most writing, is inherently selfish and much of the personal items I write should be taken with a giantic silo of salt.

I am truly sorry if I've hurt any of you.

Friday, December 30, 2005

Moving Right Along

This week my office moved locations and if I thought that things were scatterbrained in the daily operation of this place, then I was given a real treat during this move.
Rather than spend a few weeks prepping the move like most other places might do, we did everything slapdashedly in a matter of three or four days. True, we're not a terribly big company, but every office environment has paper and we are no exception.
Thankfully everything seemed to make it over in one piece though our temporary office space (the permanent one being fixed up) seems to be radically lacking in electrical sockets.
Since I will be gone in 2 weeks from today, this shouldn't bother me. I guess when you've spent the better part of three years worrying about the daily operations of business, it's customers, and it's intraoffice politics, it is a hard habit to break.
But I'm sure a few days in Costa Rica will help fix that.

And plus, I'll have a whole new set of office worries once I have a new job in Boston. Hooray!

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Nickel Creek

I've been a huge fan of the band Nickel Creek for around four years. Their blend of bluegrass, pop and instrumental music is essentially infectious. The band consists of Sara and Sean Watkins (brother and sister) and Chris Thile, a sort of mandolin protege. The three of them are from around San Diego way and seem to have been doing this forever, despite being in their early-mid 20's. I saw them 2 years ago at the same venue and this time I had much better seats and as this was the last show of their current tour, the band was a bit punchy and lot more relaxed than last time.

They had someone named Andrew Bird open for them - which was an excellent choice because his music was just as eclectic and varied as Nickel Creek's. Andrew Bird's music seemed to involve a lot of violin (both legato and pizzicato), electric guitar, a xylophone, and whistling. Yes, whistling, which is actually much cooler in actuality than it sounds. I've since become very obsessed with a few of his songs and have listened to them daily.

As for Nickel Creek, they just rocked pure and simple. How can a sorta bluegrass band with a mandolin, guitar and violin rock? Just trust me. Along with a great selection of their songs, they found ways to incorporate other artists' songs into their playset. The most amusing and best received cover was "Toxic" by Britney Spears. Yes, that Britney Spears. But my favorite cover was done in the middle of an instrumental piece called "The House of Tom Bombadill" (yes, the Tom Bombadill from The Lord of the Rings) - right in the middle of the piece, they segued and started playing Randy Newman's "Short People". This was terribly funny since Sean and Sara Watkins are both of fairly small stature and they're singing a song that says "short people got no reason to live". Priceless.

The whole venue was pretty much energized by their performance and they did 2 encores. Though they finally ended off with "Why Should the Fire Die?" a quieter number from their new eponymous album, their first encore was a raucous version of "The Fox" based on the old folksong. Mid-song, their base player got up and did a tap/jig to a standing ovation and was joined after a couple of minutes by Chris Thile, clearly the clown of the group.

Even though I went alone, there was that short-lived camaraderie with the rest of the audience at the Wiltern, and together we rejoiced in music that made us all quite simply happy.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

The Internet is For Porn

This past weekend I went to Vegas for what is the fourth or fifth time this year.
Yet this trip had a larger purpose than just getting me the hell out of my house for the weekend. I was actually getting my birthday present from my friend David. And yes, he is a very nice friend for doing this for me. Oddly the trip to Vegas wasn't the actual gift. The actual gift was 2 tickets to see "Avenue Q" at the Wynn.
For those unaware of it's brilliance, Ave Q is a Broadway musical that is essentially Sesame Street for adults. The main characters are mostly puppets, much like Burt, Ernie, and Cookie Monster. The show won a Tony for best new musical and after seeing it, I understood why. The songs are fun and very much in the vein of the Sesame Street songs, but the lyrics include lines like "it sucks to be me", "everyone's a little bit racist" and yes, "the internet is for porn". But at the same time there are some very touching songs such as "There's a Fine Fine Line" (between love and waste of time) and "I Wish I Could Go Back to College" - something I've thought about on many an occasion. The actors were brilliant and managed to make the puppets seem like real people. Plus, it was hysterically funny.
The rest of the weekend was spent doing pretty much nothing - and that worked for me. Saw the new Narnia movie - and yes Virginia, there is a Jesus-like lion in the movie.
Other than Avenue Q, the other highlight of the weekend was a very snazzy meal at a restaurant at the Four Seasons. How snazzy? They will give you a napkin to match - black if you're wearing dark colors, white if you're wearing lighter colors. Instead of bread, they served freshly baked foccacia on heated stones. And we must have had five waiters. The food wasn't bad either - they served one of the best Caesar salads I have ever had, and the scallops with garlic butter that I ordered were remarkable. The coolest thing they did was the dessert; we ordered something called the American Pie Sampler and it was four mini pies with accompanying sauces (Strawberry-Rhubarb pie with strawberry coulis, apple and almond pie with creme anglese, cinnamon pumpkin pie with cinnamon cream, and lemon meringue with mango coulis) - it was delicious and beautiful at the same time.
Of course the flight back was a disaster, we waited almost 40 minutes on the security line and then the flight was delayed for another 30. But all in all, one of the better birthday presents I've gotten in a while.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

And Back to the Big Apple I Go

Despite my newly imposed budget and shortage of time in the month of February, I have now committed myself to be in NY on February 5th for my friend's wedding.

With my big move in mid-February and no income from January 13th onward, I'm trying to keep myself within both time and financial limits. But with a flight to Costa Rica on January 18th and a flight to NY on February 1st, it doesn't seem to be working out.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

The Lackluster Go-Getter

Since I plan on moving within the next 2 months, I am finding it very hard to muster any real motivation at work. For almost 3 years I've pushed and exerted effort and tried to be the best employee at this god forsaken company. And for the most part, I've succeeded. I started in April 2003 and by September I was a low level manager. By this point I manage the whole office. So I should feel some need to be...proactive. And yet...

These days I spend most of my time at work surfing the web, reading the NY Times online, emailing and IM'ing friends, and occasionally picking up the phone to make a work related call. I figure I can't be fired at this point since I am still keeping things going and I'm still doing some work. But I guess I'm just surprised at my lackadaisical attitude towards work. For the first year here I was petrified that I would get fired (having been fired thrice in the past) and I worked my ass off. I'd get in at 8 and work straight thru the day till 6, even though I was only getting paid for 40 hours a week. At this point, I get in at 8:30, still take no lunch, but I'm out of here at 5 on the dot most days.

I've sort of started my countdown to leaving this place and I'm sure that has something to do it. But I've also considered that perhaps I'm just done with the job. This has stopped being the good kind of challenging and now I just want something else; not sure what that "else" is but I know I won't find it here.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Tis the Season

Despite the fact that the year has 12 months, the movie studio execs see a year as containing less than half that. The three months of summer and the end months of winter tend to be the only times that we the movie going public get the good movies, the movies that haven't been sitting on someone's shelf for three years, just waiting for an open weekend to sneak out and make a paltry sum.

Slowly but surely I will see them all, but thus far here are some of the major contenders of the season, with a few thoughts:

1. Jarhead
Many critics had problems with the fact that this movie based during the first Gulf War doesn't take sides nor does it go in depth about the main characters background. What I found is that the movie makes about point about these two items of contention. For the most part the soldiers are all very openly not choosing sides on the war; they don't care what the reasons are or whether it's a good thing that they are there. They are there simply to do what they are told and that is the end of it. Sure there are a few characters who do manage to question it all, but it is quite clearly not the main mindset of the rest of them. Similarly, the movie literally shuts the door on Anthony Swofford's life outside the Marines. We are told we will not see what has happened to his sister who is in a clinical facility, and that we won't learn about his relationship with his parents. These soldiers who are all essentially boys are trained and trained but never get called upon to do that which they have been trained to do. The movie can be almost claustrophobic in its scope, but that is only because we the audience are feeling the limits felt by the characters - the limits of their environment, of their mobility, of their information, and of themselves. Jake Gyllenhall is excellent as Swoff and Peter Saarsgard as his partner Troy is, as always, the consummate actor. The movie isn't perfect, but for a hard unflinching look at what war can be like for those in it.

Capote
The movie itself becomes almost forgotten in the face of Philip Seymour Hoffman's brilliant performance as Truman Capote, the high voiced writer embraced by society who eventually fell victim to his own talent and preciousness. Revolving around the events recounted in Capote's book "In Cold Blood", the movie is less about the actual events and more about the author's own processes. Two men killed an entire family one night and Capote decided to write his next New Yorkers article about the affect this had on the small town they lived in. Evolving into a book, the subject matter took hold of Capote, and nothing more so than Perry Smith, one of the murderers. Capote seems to have fallen in love with Smith but uses those affections for his own purposes and to further his ambitions for his novel. Hoffman never falters in portraying Capote as the catty and manipulative man that he was, but he also doesn't shy away from showing us Capote's vulnerability and desire for love and attention that seemed to never be sated.

Good Night and Good Luck
Like a good wine, George Clooney just seems to get better with age. In his second directorial outing, Clooney has directed this tense movie about Edward R. Murrow and how he took on McCarthy. Casting himself in a supporting role as Murrow's producer Fred Friendly, Clooney allows David Strathairn to shine as Murrow, from the very specific vocal tones to the ever present cigarette. Clooney assumes the best of his audience and doesn't spend too much time lingering on who Joseph McCarthy was and just jumps straight into the bare bones of the action. During a time when most people were afraid of sneezing in McCarthy's presence, Murrow dared to openly question him and call him out on the House of Unamerican Activities Committee. This could have spelled the end of Murrow's career, Friendly's career and could even have caused the downfall of the network. But Murrow and his staff stuck to their guns and helped bring down one of the more dangerous people in the US government. The cast is peppered with wonderful small performers such as Frank Langella as William Paley and Ray Wise as Don Hollenbeck, another reporter whose end is less victorious than Murrow's. But the picture belongs to Strathairn and the black and white film serves him well.

Brokeback Mountain
Dubbed by most as the "gay cowboy movie" Brokeback Mountain is so much more. Yes, at the center of the movie are 2 cowboys who one summer tending to a flock of sheep up in the mountains discover a rare and passionate affection for each other, but the movie is less a pornographic jaunt than a subtle and tragic love story. Because of the society they grew up and their own feelings of obligation to marry and have a family, Jack Twist (Jake Gyllenhall) and Ennis Del Mar (Heath Ledger) never live the life they both want. Instead, they push their every day existence waiting for the occasional "fishing trips" during which they could openly indulge in their love for each other. As Ennis's wife, Michelle Williams gives us the portrait of a woman who suspects who her husband truly is, but doesn't really want to admit it to herself. Ledger and Gyllenhall are both amazing. They never get campy or engage in any stereotypes or allow their characters to become the cowboy member of The Village People. Both Twist and Del Mar are victims of both circumstance and their own hungers and desires. Directed by Ang Lee "Brokeback Mountain" becomes a meditation on love, desire and loss between 2 people; their gender is only a second thought.